I'm still struggling to find a balance between work and home. I can't seem to shake the feeling that I'm missing out on so much by working and its so hard when you're working with kids to justify being away from my kids for 8 hours a day to care for other kids. However I like my job and don't want to just give it up. I really wish there was a way to make all of this work out. I know my boys are missing me because when I am home they are attached to my hip and I can't get any time to myself which also makes self care difficult because I am busting my ass trying to make sure I get enough time with my kids and wanting to work as much as possible so I can make sure they have everything they need and some of what they want. I'm also finding it difficult to make sure everyone is getting what they need and I've been putting myself off to the side.
I know that at some point I will find that balance and for now I just have to push through and get creative.