Saturday, June 8, 2019

Work Work Work

   Now that I'm back in the workforce after being a stay at home mom for almost 11 years is HARD. I'm really struggling with finding comfort and balance in my position.

   I struggle with feeling like I'm somehow screwing everything up at home and at work.  I when I'm at home I worry that I'm not spending enough time with my family and at work I feel like I'm always screwing up.  I cant help but wonder if I'm even in the right field.  I keep telling myself that at some point everything will feel right but until then I'm really struggling with my comfort level.

   I've been having a hard time accepting just how hard it is to not be there for everything with my boys.  Today I missed my littlest boys very first lacrosse goal and my oldest boys lacrosse game.  This has to be the hardest part of being back at work.  I've gone from being there for everything to missing so much in such a short time. 

   I'm sure that I will find a balance and comfort at some point but I know that I also need to make some changes to make this happen.  My boys at the end of the day are my EVERYTHING and matter more to me then anything and being there for them is what takes priority to me.

   What is something that you struggled with while working? Did you eventually find a way to make things work for you better? Leave your response in the comments below.

Until next time,

Saturday, May 25, 2019

Im Back.

I'm Back!
I took a little break from blogging to get myself back on track and now I feel like I'm in the right place to get back into blogging.

When I stopped writing I noticed myself in a downward spiral and I needed to take time let myself have those feelings and then build myself back up and now, I'm a working mom.  I got a job working in the field I was trained for many many moons ago, before my little terrors came along. Its still a little difficult going to work and leaving my baby (who is now 4) home with his daddy but I know he is well taken care of which is the only thing that makes it easier.

I'm getting back to take care of my physical health now that my mental health is in a good place. Its hard though after struggling for so long to get back to eating properly and exercising.  I'm doing better with eating proper portions and better food but I still struggle to get regular exercise.  Now that I'm doing shift work 5 days a week I've put exercise at the very bottom of the list after self care, time with my family and sleep. I really miss my kickboxing class however it no longer exists but I'm going to look into a new class to take sometime soon.

I could really use some suggestions of activities or exercises to try out so please leave a comment telling me your favourite exercise or activity that you would like to try?

Until Next Time